Have you ever been asked questions (implied and direct) on the reasons for what you do?
“Who are you, anyway?”
“Are you just like everyone else, seeking popularity?”
“Are you just gifted or is there more behind the gifts?”
Here is my response (implied or direct): “Time will tell.”
If I am a hoax, time will tell.
If I am real/genuine, you will know.
If what I do is all for show, then when the spotlights go off, nothing will happen.
If my aim is to be known by “the So-and-So’s” – then that will become clear.
Children of God are not asleep.
Someone will see you (and me) for who we REALLY are.
I am so determined to live out my purpose. It is my determination to use every gift, talent and skill available to advance the Kingdom of God and to help others. I push hard because all I have as a visual is my mother at age 46 in her last few weeks of life admonishing me and my sisters to take care of ourselves and not waste our lives. She felt as if she wasted hers by allowing ignorance and fear to dominate. (She died of metastatic breast cancer.)
I push hard daily to fulfill my purpose. I push hard daily to birth what God has placed inside of me. I strain and stretch myself (as one reaching for the finish line) because I want to see my expected end – a life filled with opportunities to give, to sow and invest in the lives of many.
If I am never known on television, so be it.
If I never record an album, I am fine with that, too.
If I never win a coveted award – I will be okay.
BUT – If I die without completing my purpose, that would terrify me most. This is highly personal for me, but it is the truth.
I MUST FULFILL MY PURPOSE.